week 2!

Hello there!

made it thru week 2 and BOY what a week!!

Flyers lost the cup to the Blackhawks, im a big Flyers fan and was really PRAYING they could do it! they did an amazing job and fought like HELL to get as far as they did. im really proud of them!!! im sad i didnt stay up to watch the games but i would have not made it in to classes if i stayed up toll 11 watching! plus i think i jinx the team if i watch sometimes. ;)

My ex boyfriend that i left to move down here, was just diagnosed with level 3 or stage 3 colin cancer. hes had skin cancer for years now & has been having stomach problems as of recent. he was rushed in to emergency surgery this past weekend and had part of his lower bowel and lymph nodes removed. he will be starting chemo next month, every two weeks for 6 months. his doctors are staying positive and giving him positive chances on beating this, telling him that they caught it early. i find that difficult to believe when stage 4 is the worst (terminal) cancer, but i will stay positive and think good happy thots and pray something fierce. he wants me to come back up for a while just to spend time with him, i need to do it sometime when theres a school break for a few days. ive been so focused on school this week i havent had any time to break down till now. all thats going thru my head is what if??..., why HIM??..., what caused this??..., has he got his affairs in order???..., i am going to hell for this but i even wondered what hes going to do with the bike & mustang! all the thots of why is this happening to a GOOD person (ok, w issues) but hes not an asshole like some ppl who deserve ill!! i dont want him to die, its not right. im really trying to hold it together right now, just so difficult. im trying to stay busy & not loose my mind. it really is difficult, im so glad my best friend is here to keep me going.

School is great!! Learning more Illustrator and enjoying the hell out of it, cant wait to learn more! this week we (myself & my classmates) have been working on our logo & putting them into a "branding" package. so i have a business card, letterhead, envelope and a 4-up logo of black & white, inverted and a few others i just cant seem to remember off hand, my notebook is in my truck. thinking of a CD cover to put my portfolio onto for a businessey resume package to give to perspective employers. cant think of what else to do. probably spend the weekend to come up with something. then monday we will be mounting all logos and stuffs to foam boards. just 2 weeks of classes left till next class begins, exciting!! another book to buy! ;) i like my teacher (s), i have two basically but mr. williams teaches (or passes along his pearls of wisdom) to myself and 4 other classmates. we are sharing a classroom with like 15 other people in the graphic arts field so that we can learn and share ideas with them. i very much enjoy it! really freekin wish Antonelli was like this some 20 years ago!!! i wouldnt have withdrew! mr williams has us spend 30 minutes a day to just clear our minds and draw or do "mindless" excersizes to focus us and get our minds on track. then we discuss or learn whatever we can. i usually stay later so i can get comfortable with the illustrator program.

*SIGH* ready to relax now....have a lot to do this weekend, i need to focus and get this done! :)

SO! off i go! have a GREAT weekend!